Showing posts with label GA. Show all posts
Showing posts with label GA. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 10, 2018

Message in a Picture




Dec 1992, INT. NIGHT

I found myself sitting next to this FPN in a poker game. I found her to be gorgeous and charming though no sparks flew in any directions. I was completing my Masters at Georgia Tech and by design I was geeky type, unsure of the complexities of life if they don’t result in a solve able equation on my calculator.

But the Nature has its own games to play. So halfway thru the game I started hearing some voices in my head. I ignored them, but the Nature was persistent. It started sending me the same message in the form of images instead.

I saw her in a white dress, a small town Baptist Church, happy faces, Rev Evans as Betsy, I saw Vintage Ford with those words and balloons, and I saw some Romantics Etc. Etc.

Just right then, someone knocked on the door. We all turned around to see a cop in uniform entering the house.  He was introduced as the brother of that FPN. He was friendly and fun guy, but I was from India. In India cops are suppose to be Judge, Jury and the executioners, and they carry the load of Indian Patriarchy on their shoulders.

Well, to cut the story short, the freshly downloaded images started disappearing one after the other in a hurry. The white dress was the first one to be erased.  The romance and Etc. Etc. hung on for a while, but in the end they too gave up and left. By the time the game was over I had no images left to review again.

Then life distracted me and I forgot about her.

After Maa, I went looking for my lost life in the form of pictures from the past, and found her again.  Life has written lots of stories on her face as it did on mine. We all get that. No exceptions.

This time I revived those images without fear or retribution. This is what I like about getting old and single.  No fear. It should not have been in those moments too, but we all are prisoners of our own devices.

Ps: My frnd who is a Bulldog fan says it’s my GA Tech influence that made me so cautious in pursuing her further. If I were a UGA grad I would have asked her out regardless of the outcome.

May be he is right!


Oh well!

Monday, September 12, 2016

The day that changed the World..


I don't think any of us wud forget what we were doing on September 11th 2001.
I was the Project Manager on a 8 million dollar project called Jimmy Carter Blvd in Gwinnett County, Atlanta, GA.
My first Independent project as a Project Manager, after I was trained and equipped by my employer in the arts and science of building roads n bridges. It was exciting time to be managing a path breaking project, and I was looking forward to its completion.
The kinds of reception, whistles and applause you get, after removing all barriers and traffic control devices to allow that first motorist to go thru, on the road you just build, still gives me a high.
I had just returned from my graveyard shift and was sleeping when my in-house girl frnd woke me up to break the news.
What we saw brought shock, disbelief, horror, fear and confusion. Like most Americans, I thought it must be a mistake but then the second plane hit and then I knew its more than that.
All day was spend in watching TV and absorbing the images of fear, tears and sufferings. For weeks stories that emerged kept me troubled. I still feel for the guys n gals that chose to jump from top floors...
Our World changed that day for worst.
Soon news stories started showing up of how the Arab looking or Muslims are targeted and humiliated in public places. Fortunately, I was in a great company of frnds and co-workers. Not a single incident that made me feel I am a Muslim or an outsider.
On the other hand when me and bunch of coworkers / hommies were entering a cafeteria, the African American security person stopped them for a check up and allowed me to go without frisking. After I passed thru security, I realized what she did, my humor kicked in, so I went back to her asking
" Hey you did not check me, I cud be a terrorist?"
"Not with that face honey...not with that face....go on..."
That is the American spirit that always rises from the ashes. That is the spirit we need to nurture in each other - if we want the world to not slide in the one way slope of darkness, bigotry and fear.
World can be beautiful again....yes it can...

Friday, August 14, 2015

Jimmy Carter - what a journey!





Someone taps on my shoulder. I turned back.
“Hi, I am Rosalynn”

I found an elderly women greeting me with a big smile. I just saw her on stage with Jimmy Carter. OMG. She is his wife Rosalynn. She was the first lady of the US in 1976-80. What an honor! She herself came down to greet us. I was not expecting that.

We were in a Church at Plains, GA. hometown of the Carters. I have been his fan since my college days at Georgia Tech, so when I found out he teaches at Sunday school of the church, I drove to Plains, GA 160 miles south west of Atlanta. One of my first project in has named Jimmy Carter Blvd. gotten a National Award, so I had one more reason to go.

We shake hands.

“I reckon you guys drove from Atlanta?”
“Yes we did. She just got here to the US and this is her first time outside ATL. I wanted her to see Mr. Carter on her first visit”.
“Oh that’s so sweet.  I am glad both of ya’all you cud come. You gonna stay for the picture?”
“Yes we will”
“We will see you then”
She said and moved on to her next guest.

You can safely flashback to the time when her husband was the tenant of the White House and you could imagine her greeting and exchanging pleasantries with the kings, queen and dictators the same way.

My appreciation of Jimmy Carter is not an accident. Even though he was the President before even I cud spell America, I am deeply touched by his entire life.

He has done so much for the World after losing the second term that it will take pages after pages to write them down. The most significant one I think his peace initiatives in every conflict the World saw after 1980. His involvement in ‘Habitat for Humanity’ by constructing cheap houses for poor has been remarkable.

He has been a man of deep deep convictions. For example when he was the President and Iran Hostage was crisis was raising the passions in America for a military strike. He had the choice to drop half a dozen nuclear bombs on Iran, he refused to do so. He negotiated and then authorized a rescue operation which failed miserably making his second term impossible.

American resentment for Iran was at its height, he and his advisers knew this is going to hurt in 1980, yet he stayed true to his belief of “killing each other’s children is no way to peace”

What a story the Carters have!

He went to my Alma Mater Georgia Tech. He used to joke about his career path by saying “ I am a son of a farmer, trained nuclear engineer, worked on first Nuclear submarine, was President of the US and sell peanuts for a living!”

I had driven my then in-house girl frnd to Plains, GA hoping she would fall in love with him. I wanted her to volunteer her time to ‘Carter Cente’ in Atlanta.

As we drove around town square, I was hoping to see his picture all over. There was none. Any street named after him. Nope. I was shocked as I am used to politicians of all hue, size n shape welcoming me with maa-baap smiles in every town I visit in India. No sign of Carters here.

We asked for his Museum. We were directed to his high school which was converted to a Museum. We walked around the classes and halls thinking how it must have been those days.

On our way back I asked the old lady at the main reception about where can I see Mr Carter. She said in the evening you will see an old man cycling around the main road – that’s him!

It turned out she was the classmate of President Carter while he was in High School, same high school where she was sitting then!

PS: Even though Jimmy Carter lives in the land of Satan, please google him or read one of his books and be surprised what it will teach you and your child. We are in a global village and chances your daughter and sons are not gonna be getting born-grow up up-marry -bear children and die with in 5 miles of your house. They cud go as far as 5000 miles. They need to learn a few things about others.

Mind it!

Monday, June 08, 2015

Love, Dona!





Love, Dona!

I have picked out a name for you
What is it?
I will tell you when we meet.

Dona calls for once a month dinner meeting.  Looking back now, I realize what she was doing. By seeing me personally over the dinner every two or three weeks she was making sure I am doing fine and staying sane.

In the US, it is common for folks to pick up names. I had never thought of it but now that she brought this up, I was curious to see what name she thinks for me. 

Most of the times I carry flowers whenever I see her.  I have never ever seen anyone respect my flowers like she does.  She would take pictures of the flowers and send me showing how they are doing. Those flowers from Virginia Highlands flower shop used to last long, sometime weeks. To gift her flower was an occasion I used to Cherish.

After so many years of gifting flowers I have developed a theory. I can predict with reasonable accuracy the amount of time my relationship with someone is going to last, depending how he or she handles my flowers with in first 10 minutes of receiving it.

Example:  A few years back in Bhopal, I met two awesome ladies both belonging to same socioeconomic class. I took flowers with me to both of them. One did not care enough but the other sent me whatsapp picture of how my flowers are doing. One relation ended within a few days, the other is still going strong.

I had bought proper gift able flowers for the first lady, but for the second I cud not find a flower shop.  It was past 9 and only flower shop open was in the temple. The temple was closed so that shop was almost winding up for the day.

Temple flowers are normally yellow loose Marigold not fit for gifting as a bouquet.  I buy hose loose Marilgold for RS 75 and arrive at her home, where her entire family is shocked to see me carrying flowers in a newspaper.  I was prepared for this so I start with “ Devi Ko Chadane walen phool hain – Mandir Band Ho Gyaa Hai. Hum socha Us Devi Ko nahi Is Devi Pe chada Doon. Swaab Tab Bhi Mielgaa!!”

I have carried flowers to her many more times. Proper flowers. Expensive. Bouquet.  But she talks of those 75RS ones everytime she finds flowers in my hand and she says “ Un phoolon ki baat hi aur thi”.

See what I mean…


What is it? I ask Dona
The name that fits you and that I like is – Dona paused.
My anticipation peaked with names Mike, Sean, Chris doing the rounds of my field of imagination.
The name that I like and fits you like a tee is “Khush Guftaar!”
“What?”
And each letter in Khush Guftaar stands for something.
Where did u find this? This is Persian…
I had gone to the library.

This is how I lost my chance to be called “Sean” or “ Mike” or whatever. The bottom line is “ Khush Guftaar” is what I was, and what I have always will be.

Dona knew it.

Sad part is I do not remember now what each letter stood for in Kush Guftaar.

Life is good. I am elected as the new Senator from the School of Civil Engineering.  I represent my college in the Student Governing council. When the President of the Council asks me to take oath by putting my hand on my heart and repeating after him, I feel something.  Don’t know what to call feeling but the deepest desire and commitment to serve the students comes to mind.  But I am sure it was much deeper something words cant describe.

These days when I see India’s MPS and MLAs take oath, I look for familiar signs n feelings on their faces. Mostly I don’t see anything…

USA V/S Shahid Sayed

“You are herby requested to leave the country by 30th and inform our office of the arrangements you made to depart, failing of which INS will deport you thereafter”

That was the notice from INS.

My World went into a spin again. But this time I am angry.

I am doing great academically. Why are they being unreasonable to me? What sins have I committed by working and saving money for my tuition? Is this the greatest country they talk about? Why me?

All my frnds are not happy with new INS notice, but they have reconciled to the fact that I have to leave. After crying one night, Dona too accepted my fate.

The only problem is I have not accepted this fate. No. I am not ready to go back to India without my degree.

Crazy ideas entering my mind on hourly basis as the day of departure approaches.

A day before the deadline I call President of the University Dr. Patrick Crecine to seek his help. He is away attending GA Tech football championship in Florida. A lady called Jennifer picks up the phone and talks sweetly. ( She introduces herself as his Girl Friend, I remember. Girlfriends are always nice)

I tell her what INS is doing to me and ask for help from the President. I end my conversation by saying “ I will burn myself at Georgia Tech Student Center if INS deports me today”.

Some student in India had burnt himself protesting against Mandal Commsion – that is where the idea came from.

She calms me down and asks me that I give her 15 mins before I do anything stupid. She wants a promise from me. I promise.

She hangs up.

In 5 minutes two cops knock on my door.  They too do a search of my body for any weapon.


And then they ask me to come up with them for a ride.

Thursday, June 04, 2015

Love, Dona!




"Love, Dona!"

"You go to a women's bedroom and "don’t do a thing" man???"

I did not go her bedroom...she took me there...
Okay, let me get this straight. She picks you up from home, takes you to a dinner and a movie...
And she teaches me how to play pools too
Okay, she takes you to a bar and teaches you how to play pool...
Yes
And then
She wanted to show me her apartment, so she took me her home.
And then
She wanted me to see her bedroom...
AND THEN?
And then I ask her to drop me home...

Tony unable to control his laughter gets out his truck and laughs away to glory.

Tony Ross, my immediate boss and I are sitting in a truck talking about my journeys in the last weekend.  Tony is an African American and like most African Americans he laughs with is body and soul.

I am able to secure an internship with GDOT and am responsible for the bridge constructions on GA 400 Buckhead Extension.

I am feeling offended with his non-stop laughter and he realizes it. It is a chilly morning. He comes back in the truck and tries to be nice.

"Look here man, I understand you from India and you all that, but THIS IS AMERICA. You don’t go to a woman's bedroom and don’t DO a thing. You insulted her man. By your action you told her she is not desire able.

The desire able girl under discussion is called M.A.  She had asked me out the last weekend. However, from Monday I had noticed a change in her attitude, so I was jiving with Tony to get to the bottom of the issue.

In my defense I throw the following words: "Emotions, Culture, Soul, Islam, Haram, Mental Block, Love, Poetry, Stranger etc." and I end my argument with " besides I am saving myself for my wife"

Tony erupts again.

{Note: In those days million years ago "saving yourself for your spouse" was a valid reason for not doing a lot of crazy things. I feel my generation is the last one that would produce Sufi saints and Rishis.}

“If not doing anything was an insult – I would do that again” - I declare.
“She wont give you a chance to insult her again man!”

Tony was right…

Tony is a character. Whenever I see him in the morning and say " Good Morning Tony" he wud always respond with " Too early for a good morning man, we have not seen the boss man yet".

He drops me home every day. That weekend episode was a topic of discussion among male employees for a while, and as a result Tony started calling me "Casanova without the Car!"

Winter, 1990. Restaurant

Why you need a car? Dona wants to know.

By this time, I have made enough money to buy a second hand car. I was looking for a go ahead from Dona. She has become my guardian angel in these months. So running things by her before doing was the norm.

I need a car because.... I tried to make up some crappy excuses.

Dona is a Georgia Tech graduate and is at a high position in a Railway company. She did not get to that position by listening some BS from idiots. She explains to me rationally why a car is not a good idea. I need to pay attention to studies.

I agree with her!

Earlier, Even though the court had given me a break my struggle was far from over. I had no money to pay $2100 tuition fee. The office of international students at Georgia Tech recommended me for an out of state tuition waiver which means I have to $610 only - a fee that long time residents of Georgia pay.

Dona arranged First Presbyterian Church at Peachtree Street to pay my in state tuition of $610.  At First Presbyterian, I meet some genuine people who made me feel like home.I visited Sunday school of the First Presbyterian many a times but never, ever anyone suggested or hinted that I convert to Christianity. Ever.

I still have the copy of the $610 that First Presbyterian issued to me!

Life is good!!





Sunday, May 10, 2015

Love, Dona!


My birthday wishes card from her has arrived... It is card no 25.
Why 25? Coz she and I have known each other for 25 years!
In these 25 years, between US and India, I have changed my address at least a dozen times. But she always found my address to send me my birthday wishes. Every year....year after year!
A lot changes in 25 years....people meet, fall in love, drift away. Lots n lots of new experiences come and go. Career goes from Arsh to Farsh to somewhere in between. 25 years is a damn long time.....Time is cruel. It changes everything!
Not her...
This time, even time failed to change the arrival of this birthday card from her to me. Even though, at times, I failed in reciprocating the same on her birthday or chose internet cards to wish her. She always stuck to the paper card via snail mail. Same Hallmark card...same last two words " Love, Dona!"
This is her story...
Nov, 1989, Atlanta, GA
I am in serious depression. Have not been eating properly since my arrest. How could someone eat or sleep if the biggest dream of your life ( of getting education in America) just got busted. I am looking at a deportation form the US back to India. My crime: I was working off campus without proper INS permission.
One morning a couple of INS agent approached me in the gift shop I was working at and asked me " Are you Shahid Sayed?". I said " Yes I am"
"You are under arrest...lets go...." all they said and handcuffed me.
My world collapsed right before my eyes. I knew its over. They made me sit in the back of the police car like they do to hardened criminals. I have tears in my eyes. I am thinking of mother. How would she take this....How would she react to see me back in India without my Masters degree in Civil Engineering?
Tears pick up intensity....
I look at the streets of downtown Atlanta.....my story is over within 6 months of arrival in this exciting country. A country of hope, humanity and justice. Now, I will be deported for earning money to pay my bills, to save money for my tuition at Georgia Tech.......to stay alive!

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Waqt...


Waqt, Guzar Kar Dekho To
Tumhare Chere Ke Naqoosh
Tumhari Aankhon Ke Suroor
Tumhari Zulfon Ki Woh Chaoon
Tumhare Palkon Ke Woh Gaoon
Tumhari Baaton Ke Sehar
Tumhare Lehje Ke Safar
Tumhare Honton Ke Lamas
Tumhari Bahon Ke Sukoon

Ko Kaise Mubham Kar Raha Hai
Pehle Is Ne Sirf Ek Hi Kiya Tha
Dekho Ab Kitne Zulm Kar Raha Hai!

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, September 28th, 2014 @ 12:35am

Saturday, November 02, 2013

Tumhari Yaaden....


Ye Duniya Ek Veerana Hai
Phir Bhi Chalte Jana Hai

Door Ufaq Ke Paar Tale
Chunke Tum Ko Panaa Hai

Dil Bojhal, Jism Hai Ghayal
Phir Bhi to Muskurana Hai

Khwab Thin Tum, Koi Pari Thin
Dil Ko Ab Samjhana Hai

Pehle To Tumhari Sun Leni Hai
Phir Khoob Tumhen Rulana Hai

Jaise Taise Umr Kati Hai
Ab Koi Aur Gul Khilana Hai?

Duniya Hai Ya Ek Chalawa
Kiya Aana, Kiya Jaana Hai!

Tumhari Yaaden Khatam Nahi Hotin
Kiya Qaroon Khazana Hai!

Hogi Kahin Kisi Ped Ke Neeche
Woh Qabr Hi Ab Thikana Hai

(C) Shahid PArvez Sayed


Sunday, September 01, 2013

"Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?"




Jab Raston Main Sare Aam, Yu Hi Chalte hue
Koi Mahobbat Nahi karta, Na kuch Jatataa hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Kisi Saneechar Ki Subah Tumhare Bistar par
Koi Banaa Kar Nashta Nahi Laataa, Na Khilata hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?
  
Jab Tumhari Aankhon par, Muskurahoton par
Koi Nazmen  Nahi kehta, Na hi Gungunata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Umr Main Ek Baras Aur Jama Ho Jaane Par
Tumhen Haseen, Aur Haseen Tar Nahi Batlata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Tumhare Jazbon ki Shiddat, Wafa aur Shoki ke
Kuch Qisse Duniya ko Nahi Sunwataa, Na Batata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Rotiyan Banate Waqt Aaye Hue Zakhmo par
Koi Afsos Nahi karta, Aur Na Lipat Jata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Udaas Dekh kar Tum ko  Sare Shaam Jab Koi
Khamoshiyan Nahi Sunta, Na Samajh Jata Haai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Tum Bazar se Laane ke liye kuch Kehti ho
Janab who to Nahi Laataa, kuch aur liye aata hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Bagair Baatye Jab Koi Office Tumahre Aataa hai
Tum Use Dekh Khil Jaati ho, Who Muskata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Badi Khareedari Ko Taalne, Pasie Bachane ke Liye
Chikni Chapdi Baaten koi karta hai, Na Ithlata hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

“Main Aap ke Liye Poori Duniya se Lad Sakti Hoon”
Ye Keh Hue, scohe Hue Ik zamana sa Hua jataa Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Hazaron Meel ke Fasloon, Itni Doori ke baa- wajood
Koi Tumhare Din raat, Subah Shaam Samajh Jataa hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

Jab Dasht-e-Tanhayee main Bhatakta Hua koi Shair
Wohi  Gurzri Baaten Sochta Hai, Dohrata Hai
Tab Yaad Tumhen Kaun aata hai?

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, August 31st, 2013 @ 2:30 am



Thursday, May 09, 2013

Naqshaa Pe Bani Chand Lakeeren..



Naqshe Par Bani 
Aadhi Tirchi Chand lakeeren 
Kahan Kahan hamen le Gayin!

kisi Door Aftada ek Motel Ki taraf
Ya kisi college town ke  restaurant tak
To Kabhi Dariya Pe Base ek Shhar ki Jaanib
Jo Hamen Apne Watan ki Yaad Dilayaa kartaa tha

Aur Phir Shaam Dhalne Se Pehle 
Yehi Lakeeren, Wapas  Hamen
Apne Ghar Pahnucah Diya Karti Thin
Hamari Sari Duniya Un Naqshon Main Hi to Thi

Albatta Woh Ghar Ab wahan Nahi Hoga
Woh Bhi Hum Dono Main Thoda Thoda Bant kar
Alag Alag Raston Pe Nikal gyaa Hoga

Woh Raaste,  Jo Us Naqshe main Nahi the
Woh Raaste,  jo Us Naqshe main Nahi hain
Shaam Hone ko hai......

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, May 10th 2013 @1:30 am

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Be-Ghar...


Tum ne Us Ghar ki Deewaron par
Meri Tasveeren Laga Rakhi thin
Tum Kahaa Karti thin ke
Jab Main Ghar Nahi Hota to 
Woh Deewaren Bolti hain
IS Ghar main bhi Tasveeren lagi hain

US ghar main Roshni bhi
Tumhari Pasand ke Rang Audh ke Aati
IS ghar main bhi Wohi Rang hain Us ke

US ghar ke Lamp, Wind Chimes, Sofa set, aur Bartan
Sab Tumhari Pasand ke hote the 
Is ghar main bhi wohi  hian

Ye Ghar Bilkul Waisa hi Hai 
Jaisa Tum Rakhaa Karti thin
Farak Bas Itna ke

IS Ghar Main Bilkul Be-Ghar Hoon Main!

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, April 15, 2013

Monday, August 01, 2011

Ramzan in Atlanta


Jab koi dhaan paan si
Sanvli si dikhne wali ladki
Wazu kiye
Safed dupatta odhe
Mere khayal -e- masjid ki
Seedhiyon pe aa khadi hoti hai
Aankhon main bas ek lafz liye
"Chalen!"

Main ye samajh jata hoon
ke Ramzan aa chuka hoga!!