Friday, March 28, 2014


When I met her the first time she came across as a different girl. A girl with higher IQ, higher purpose in life, love for poetry and what attracted me the most was that she was a Khush Zabaan! Born and brought up in Luckhnowi tehzeeb she was a great combo of beauty and brain.

When I was done blowing up my last relationship, and was ready to reconstruct another one - I thought of her. Back then I was in the US, so I used to call her often and speak with her. Each time I used to enjoy our conversations. Each time she used to impress me with her wit and sense of humor.

And then one day she told me about her medical condition. Her kidneys were failing and she did not know how much longer she has left. I was shattered again. She again impressed me with her attitude to life and death in those circumstances.

I still used to call her to make her laugh, share a joke or some time share my new nazm. It was yahoo messenger in those days and whatsapp was years away. The last time we chatted she shared her nazm and I realized how deep she was capable of thinking.

I lost contact with her some time just went into an over drive and I had no choice but to run with it. As a result I lost touch with her.......

She died today in Lucknow!

Whoever is up there, better have a good excuse!

Rest in peace Shama!!

My last conversation with her was on June 30th, 2012 when she said

"Jun 30 10:52 PM
sayed.shama:ap achche writer hai

and her last word was a smiley!!

Jun 30 11:38 PM

ps: My mind went blank when I heard the news.....its time to cry.....I will, as soon as I finish writting her obituary!

Dekh le...kina accha writer hoon main shama....dekh tere baare main kaisa likha!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Kitne Mausam Beet gaye...

Kitne mausam beet gaye
Dheron Yaaden chod gaye...
Woh Mausam phir nahi lauta
Jo tum se baaten karta tha!!
Rehta tha jo Sath tumhaare
Aur tumhi pe Martaa tha..
Woh Mausam phir nahi lauta!

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, March 25th 2014

Wednesday, March 12, 2014


Mujhe Chudiyan bahut pasand hain
Waada Karen...
Mere Hathon ko Chudiyon se kabhi Khaali na Rakhenge
Mera Jwaab jo bhi tha, Ab main Bhool gayaa
Magar in Kambakht Chudiyon Ko yaad hai
Saari Guftagu Apni
Jis Dukaan pe Milti Hain ye
Swaal bas wohi karti hain ye
"Aap Ne Un Ki kahi Baat Kahin Taali to nahi?
Ke Un ke Haseen Haath Aaj Khaali to nahi?"

Ek aur Guftagu ab mujhe bhulni hogi!!

(c) Shahid Parvez Sayed, March 13th, 2014 @ 1:35am

Thursday, March 06, 2014

Ek Zara sa dil toota hai.....

Hanste Hue Jinhen Seh Na Sakoon, Aise to Sadmaat nahi
Ek Zara Sa Dil Toota Hai, Bas Aur to Koi Baat Nahi!

Yu to Manoos Chere hain bahut, Nazren hain wohi sab Khwaab liye
Par Dil ye Tumhara Naam Liye hai, Aur Is main ab Jazbaat Nahi!

Pehron Hui thin Baaten Phir bhi, Reh Gayi kehni Choti si ek Baat
Maani Jis ke Uljhe Hue Hain, aur Baat bhi Koi Khaas Nahi!

(C) Shahid Parvez Sayed, March 6th, 2014, 8:15pm