It is getting closer and closer everyday - my journey back to India. It should not be a big deal for any NRI like me. In fact this should be an exciting time for some one returning home to be with friends and family. This could be the most satisfying time in ones life - to be with your own people.
Not me. I am terrified with the thought that I will be flying to India in a couple of months. Terrified – because when I came to America 6 years ago I had given up on it. I had burned my bridges with India. When things were going bad for me in America, I remember having late night lonely talk with myself. In those conversations I used to convince my heart and mind that India does exits for me any more. That America is everything I got, good, bad or ugly. There is no turning back. I had remembered a story about a prince who was given a curse that “in the search of treasure, if he ever looks back – he will turn into a stone”.
I never came here in search of treasure – but that is a different story. Nevertless, I kept moving – never to look back.
Six LONG years later it dawned don me that I never left India. India came with me. It hid somewhere in the bottom of my heart and surfaced with a bang. There is no choice now to look back. I want to look back inspite of the fear that I may turn into stone – into nothing -- again.
Couple of months before I go to my home country-
3 comments:
Came to your blog cuz I was looking for people who had Andaz Apna Apna on their movie list.
Are you back in India yet? Do let me know if you need someone to do some pro bono work on your movie.
Zap.
Well, we have not only Andaz Apna Apna but the blog template in common.
I am still in the US. I will be flying next month.
Film is not complete yet. I am working on a triology on terror. They are short films with terror as the common thread.
BTW What can you do for me?
kya phillum bana re ho...
doesit have an item number or somethings :))
cheers
satish
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